Bipolar Emotions

Acting class was an interesting experience today. I realized that I can put a person to any situation. There's also a person that automatically comes up that can bring me to a certain emotion. I have that person that can listen to me talk for hours and it's cool when I was asked to do so because it seemed as though the words just rolled off my tongue. When I was talking to my partner, intending to use the feeling of wanting to apologize for something, I started speaking and all of a sudden it got awkward and that feeling of "well...I know what you're going to say" came up and i just thought...this is so weird. I have so many feeling that are just so unsettling, especially having to change during the coarse of a conversation. When i get myself worked up and angry, I want to stay angry. I want to finish the fight. But with this exercise it was a mixture of feelings having to changed. I almost liked it which is hard to admit because I'm knows as "loving to fight". It was actually a great feeling to go from screaming, to talking to your fragile grandma. It felt as though someone lifted a weight from off your chest. I would love to try this approach during an actual fight, obviously in a less obscure way but kind of switch opinions in the middle.